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Day 3 – What Drives Your Life

January 14, 2011 Leave a comment

Point to Ponder: Living on purpose is the path to peace.

Verse to Remember: “You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3 (TEV)

Question to Consider: What would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? What do I want it to be?

In this chapter Rick talks about five of the things that drive peoples lives:

  • People driven by guilt
  • People driven by resentment and anger
  • People driven by fear
  • People driven by materialism
  • People driven by the need for approval of others

Depending who I asked depends how they might answer the question what drives me, or is driving me. I think many people might say that I allow resentment and anger to drive me. And if I were being honest in a many circumstances I am allowing my hurt and pain to drive me, or even stall me from moving forward. I guess I need to re-examine my priorties and take hold of this situation and change what is driving me.


Day 2 – You Are Not an Accident

January 13, 2011 1 comment

Point to Ponder: I am not an accident

Verse to Remember: “I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born.”  Isaiah 44:2 (CEV)

Question to Consider: I know that God uniquely created me. What areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?


This isn’t an easy question for me to answer, especially publicly. I think the main area that I struggle with most is in the area of my masculinity. I’m not the world’s most macho man and any of you that really know me can attest to that. I was never into sports or athletics or any of the stuff that “guys” are supposed to be into. I wanted to do arts and crafts, I loved to sing and dance and I had a flair for the dramatic side of things. I’m a sensitive and emotional person and I was the kid that cried when another kid caught picked on. I was the kid who was friends with the kid who had no friends because I felt bad for them. In the younger years of school this didn’t matter so much. I think kids just didn’t care as much. But as the years went on I began getting picked on because of this. I was called gay and all the other fun words that go along with it. I didn’t fit in at school and I didn’t fit in at church youth groups. Even now, years later, I’m married and have a family of my own, people still assume that I’m gay and it hurts me. When you are called/told a lie often enough it starts to wear on you to the point that you start to doubt yourself and who God created you to be. And why He created the way that you are.

This part of my life is one of the biggest struggles I have with who I am. I’ve gone to God with it countless times and it never seems to change. I hate this part of me, it is an area that causes me such pain and heartache. I have had people pray for me and with me and my prayers seem to go unanswered. I don’t know why God created me this way. I know I’m supposed to trust that He has a plan and a purpose for creating me the way that I am. I just wish I knew why and could come to terms with it and accept it.

Day 1 – It All Starts With God

January 12, 2011 Leave a comment

Point to Ponder: It’s not about me

Verse to Remember: “Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him.” Colossians 1:16b (MSG)

Question to Consider: In spite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that life is really about living for God, not myself?

This is an interesting question. In the business world, maybe even life in general, it’s all about planning your career path and planning your next move. I’ve never been like that, even in times like these where I’m unemployed and it all seems so out of control. Even though I’m not serving God (in the eyes of some) and I’m not in as deep/close a relationship with Him I still trust that he will open and close the doors for me. I trust that He will guide my path and lead me to where He wants me to be. Although I have to say that I feel a bit selfish about that because it’s like I’m using God, but I know that He knows my heart and understands me.

If it were all about me and I didn’t trust God my life would probably be in a very different path, and who knows probably a lot less happy than I am. I’d have probably gone to Bible school years ago (not that there is anything wrong with that) and done everything to become a fulltime missionary. But that’s not what God had in my mind for me, at least not yet. I’m still hoping that someday I’ll be able to do both, work in my field of expertise and do missions on the side.

So, how can I remind myself that it’s about living for God and not myself? I don’t know, I guess I just have to take one day at a time and acknowledge Him in all things.

40 Days

January 11, 2011 Leave a comment

As part of my new journey I’ve decided to start The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. So appart from my regular rantings you can follow me on my 40-day spiritual journey as I go through this book. I plan on being transparent open and honest (I know something new for me) as I “journal” through my journey.

All my posts on this journey will be under the category – 40 Days.