Posts Tagged ‘Relationship’

God, Prayer & Me

January 11, 2011 2 comments

Do you ever pray for something ask that God’s will be done and then when the answer to your prayer is different that what you wanted are mad at God? I’m sure we’ve all done it at some point in our lives, I know I have. I think I’ve given up asking God for things. I still pray but I don’t think I’ve asked him for anything specific in a long time. If and when I do pray lately (which hasn’t been to often) I ask Him for will to be done. As I write this I wonder if that it is because I’ve been so distant that I don’t think I have the right to pray and ask God for things. I know in my head and probably my heart that if I call on Him and turn to Him that He will be there. But I just feel like that’s not fair to Him. I think to me my relationship with God is almost like an abusive friendship. You know the one where your friend is only friends with you when someone esle isn’t around or when it’s convenient for you. I don’t want that relationship with God and I’ve had it for far to long. I’m an all or nothing kind of person and right now I’m not sure I can go to God until I’m ready to give it all to Him.